I rarely have this chance to freely type my blog during office hours. Trust me, eyes are everywhere. Once I changed my Window, someone will see and comment. Kalau nak tengok, tengok je lah but don't comment what I am doing. Even, I wont let my hubby to watch me especially when I typed my blog.
Ok, lots of things happen. Again!! But mind you, day by day it seems hard to express my thoughts into writing. Blogging is my way to see who I am for the next 10 years, and to me, archive is important to value my life.
Sometimes, when I remember the day I was giving birth to Emir, I would open my June 2006 archive, and I realized for just few months, my life has tremendously change to something that I have never imagine. And sometimes, I love to read the day before I get married. Kelakar, konon-konon takutla, tak cukup duit laa.. You see, rase kelakar. And that is the reason I love to keep my archive.
I chatted with A few days back. Even though we are neighbors, unfortunately we hardly meet each other. I am glad to know that she is going to enter a new life and A, if you happen to read this, I love to help you menghabiskan duit ok.. huhu.
She told me one of her friends whom just married commented a lot on her new life. Gosh, Im telling you, I really scared to hear if I am not married yet. Of course the first few months are critical. Ye lah, baru nak kenal luar dan dalam, baik dan buruk. So, it takes time to adapt and tolerate and NEVER tell that you are frustrated with your new life to outsider. BERDOSA.
I once, shocked when this kakak told me that she is bored with her marriage life. How dare she said that. Love is beautiful when you shared your life with someone that you love. Gaduh tu biaselah, kadang-kadang boleh bergegar rumah, bergegar jalan. Kan bang :p. But look at your child and see them smiling back to you, you will see that you are in love and both of you are destined for each other. And you will realize that is the POWER of LOVE.
My ex-housemate will get married this coming March, but I feel guilty if I cant make it to attend her wedding in Pontian. Entahlah, compliance is coming and my schedule will be very very tight soon. I am trying not to stay back in the office cos my little son needs me sebelum tidor. Makin besar makin kuat die menyusu. I know it will be held during the weekend, but most probably I will be in the office. Entahlah, entahlah. Rase bersalah pulak.
Last week, both of us visited our two condos to see the progress of how our money flows. Sob sob. Well, most probably we will rent out our condo near Mines and we will move to Jalan Duta. Tak sabar rasenya to start our own life again after 8 months live with my parents. Not that I don't like, actually I feel lucky, but on the other hand, I need some space to be a good wife. But still under consideration cos we have to think about Emir.
Setelah bercuti selama beberapa hari, masuk je ofis hari ni, I missed Emir dearly. Sekarang Emir dah pandai jerit-jerit kalau tak dapat ape yang die nak. Geram pun ade, ni kalau besar sikit sure kene cubit dengan Ibu die. I wont let him get whatever he wants, nanti naik lemak. Hehehe.
Bile tengok gambar die mase kecik dekat atas meje ni, teringat Emir mase dalam pantang, mase die tak bagi ibu die tidur malam.
Bile tengok handphone, teringat Emir sebab Emir suke handphone Ibu
Bile tengok tudung hitam yang ade manik-manik mira selalu pakai, terinat Emir sebab Emir suke main dengan manik-manik tu
Bile tengok iklan TV3, teringat Emir. Sebab Emir kalau dengar je iklan tu, nangis terus senyap. Emir suke sangat.
Bile ade duit lebih sikit, Ibu dah tak heran dah nak beli barang untuk Ibu, Ibu sibuk nak beli baju ke mainan ke kat anak Ibu.
Bile buat keje, terbayang-bayang muke die gelak-gelak dekat kite.
Hai, rinduku tak terkata. Cepatlah 5.30pm.