Mira oh Mira
Stress and anger has always been related to each other. There have been countless studies, even more theories, about stress and anger and how they relate. But in my opinion, there are not related at all. Stress to me is the action that creates our level of alertness while anger is more into expressing your feeling. Enough about definition, actually I conquer both terms that leads to "my confusing decision making." The fact of life that I have to go through is far beyond my expectations but as I said before, every situation must always a reason behind it. And I'm glad that I've been chosen.
Making a decision is hard, but being ambitious is easy. I, personally, have a hard time making "spur-of-the-moment" decisions especially if it involves something rather important to me. Many things! From choosing the right course, choosing the right sweetheart (alhamdulillah, its him :))and now about my job, it is all involves making the right decision.
I am still puzzled whether education line is closed to my heart, although I know the gene is there. Both my parents are lecturer and my fiance also is a lecturer. Although I love public speaking, but can I be patient enough to confront different kinds of behavior and attitudes of the students the rest of my life? Am I being able to study again and again?
Let say, if I in the IT line, can I survive staying in front of computer from 8 to 5? Am I strong enough to handle all the pressures and workloads? Or, can I cope up to the rapid changes in the technology? Talking about working in HR or administrative, am I good enough to handle internal and outsiders of the company? Do I have the qualities to represent my company?
Answer. Answer. But for the time being, honestly, I enjoy teaching especially most of my students really giving full cooperation during the lesson and for sure a few students will interrupt the class. For the part time students, all of them are older than me, and alhamdulillah they still respect me as their lecturer. Teaching humanities subject giving me a full satisfaction as it is my favorite subjects but still I cant avoid teaching IT. (hehe but only Microsoft Word :p).
Looking at my statements, it seems that I love teaching. Maybe it's true only I dint realize. Maybe this is the only way I can contribute to the development of society. Maybe this is what im looking for. Maybe Maybe Maybe. Ya Allah, I need your help to find the ultimate answer...